Monday, July 27, 2009

Lines and Lies

Where is the border
between my reflection and me-
which one is real,
and which one is fantazy?
Where is the glass
between her world and mine-
the glass we're all searching for
that thin invisible line.
Where is the border
between my truth and my lies
there is no distinguishing them
despite my many tries

where is that line
between my reflection and me-
between truth and lie-
between the reality and fantasy?

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

facing fates

i'm tired of waiting
for you to appeaar
to step into the limelight,
face all your fears.
you always skirt the edge
then slip into the shade
what are you waiting for?!
for all this to fade?!
well, i'm sorry if this
wasn't in your plans.
but you waited too long
and now your fate's in my hands.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

set your translators to italian...

Ehi ragazzi-e Jessie, questa cosa è cool! la settimana scorsa, ho trascorso in un campo estivo chiamato incredibile impatto.
è stato il migliore campeggio ho mai stato a.
abbiamo adorato insieme Aaron Keyes (e banda), insieme con David Platt. questi uomini sono al tempo stesso sorprendente persone con vero cuore di Dio ".
Ho fatto davvero un sacco di buoni amici che so io a mantenere per il resto della mia vita.
abbiamo circa un milione di dentro scherzi adesso, ed io sono veramente sperando che tutto il nostro gruppo giovanile può andare il prossimo anno!

Monday, June 1, 2009

toy on my shelves

i tried to write it a million times-
that simple letter with short little lines.
but every time and every day,
i couldn't say what i wanted to say.
Now the words have come by themselves,
but you stay where you are-
like a toy on my shelves.

Sunday, May 31, 2009


i have a little secret
hidden behind my back
but no matter how you twist and turn
it'll stay there-that's a fact

i'm sorry if it hurts you
sorry if it cuts deep
but this is one little secret
i can't afford not to keep

i want to tell you-
really, i truly do
but this is a little secret
you'll be glad i kept from you

Friday, May 15, 2009

Creation Story

So we have this assignment in our language arts teacher (yes, we still have assignments) and i'm so excited.
our assignment is to create our own creation story.
so i'm paired up with this guy named Tanner.
and i'm wondering-
do y'all want to hear my creation story?
it's not Adam and Eve. And no, it's not Adam and Steve, either.
but it IS totally random and awesome and freakin cool.
so hit the comment button down there and tell me whether or not you want to hear it.
go on...
click it.
you know you want to.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

my last post...

that last post, lookin over it
makes me wonder what kind of mood i was in when i wrote it...oh! and happy (early) mother's day!
i'm freaking out!

Monday, April 27, 2009

Can you imagine?

I am Eve
what does that make you?
cause the rest of the people
in that story
as it is told right-
are male.
what about the sisters in the equation?
what about the sister
that had to marry
that had to marry Seth?
can you imagine?
marrying your own flesh and blood...
it just seems strange...
like something that would happen in alabama,
at midnight
in a trailer park
accompanied by banjo music...
get my drift?
Makes me wonder
if there was such a thing
as true love
back in the days of Eden
back when God
breathed life
into you Dad,
or Grandad...
man, imagine
being able to say-
"God breathed into my dad..."
how cool
would THAT be?
But i'm rambling.
I guess if God made
Adam right for Eve
then he must have made it
not too awkward
for the siblings.
But then again...
can you imagine marrying
the kid
that you've known
since mud pies and snot rockets...
i can't imagine.
but they could.
and they did.
so here we are.
you and me.
because sometime a while back,
a girl
married a brother
had a child
who had a child...
who had a child...
who had a child...
you get the idea.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

he looks over here

He looks over here
and we both look away
its been six months now,
but here things still stay

i'm over right here
and he's over right there
we know we need to meet
yet we have no clue where

we both back away
when a chance comes our way
scared of changing
our pattern of day to day

we're both scared of the new
comfortable with the old
scared to take the plunge
and do something bold

held back by ourself
pushed forward by the rest
confused about the future
and what to do next

Oh No!!!

okay- one of the main reasons that i haven't updated in a while: MY JOURNAL IS GONE! LIKE- "POOF!", NO MORE JOURNAL!!!!!!!!
obviously, i'm a bit upset about this. that journal not only had all my writing that i was working on, it also had some information not meant for some people to know and i am SCREWED if one of those people has found it...
sorry, i'm ranting, aren't i?
anyway, i'm sorry that i haven't updated.i'll try to get on here more often.

Monday, April 6, 2009

Holy cow!

man, i haven't updated in so long!!!i'm sorry people!

Sunday, February 15, 2009

I'll Fly Away

this was my Gram's favorite hymn-i heard it the other day on KLOVE and it amazed me how much i remembered. i hadn't heard it sung in such a long time...but it was amazing. now, she has indeed flown away to her rightful home on God's celestial shores
here are the lyrics:

I'll fly Away
Some Glad morning when this life is o'er,
I'll fly away:
To a home on God's celestial shores
I'll fly away

I'll fly away.
I'll fly away, Oh Glory
I'll fly away;
When I die hallelujah
by and byI'll Fly away.

When the shadows of this life has goneI'll fly awayLike a bird from prison bars has flownI'll fly away.
I'll fly away.
I'll fly away, Oh Glory
I'll fly away;
When I die hallelujah
by and byI'll Fly away.
Just a few more weary days and then,I'll fly away
To a land where joy shall never end.
I'll fly away.

I'll fly away.
I'll fly away, Oh Glory
I'll fly away;
When I die hallelujah
by and by
I'll Fly away.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Moon Tide

i think about the tide
and it's failing efforts to control us
i think about how though the tide is strong,
there is something so much stronger.
and i think it has to do
with that pale silver shine
that reflects on our dark waters-

i think it must have something to do
with that round glowing shape
that penetrates our watery darkness

with it's ever changing wake
but i must say that

despite the moon
and the mystery it provides
we can only go on rising
and falling with the tide

because how can a moon
that is so far away
have any impact on us
these small unimportant waves?

Monday, February 9, 2009

the dream

I slide into my seat
at the back of the room
hoping no one sensed my presence
hoping no one can tell i'm in the school
no such luck
as the teacher calls on me
i quickly answer the question,
then go back to my day dream
the dream where i'm with my friends
the dream where i get to be me
the dream where i get to laugh and play
the dream where people finally can see
that i'm not just a quiet girl
that sits in the back of rooms
that i'm not just the quiet girl
who is always left out, the one outside of you
the one always forgotten, the one you can be oblivious to.
because in the dream,
people see me for me
and i can act like me
and not get criticized
for acting like i believe-
for being the one He wants me to be...
the one that is me.

because when i'm outside the dream,
it all seems so hard.
it seems like i speak and i'm not heard
like i speak
but might as well have not spoken at all.
but then i return to the dream,
for the second time of the week
and i'm swept away again
in all that i believe.

Saturday, February 7, 2009


i gaze to the west
as the golden orb
sinks below the horizon
taking with it the promise of light and guidance
now i'm left with nothing
but the hint of warmth along th land
but i know that light is an empty promise-
so now i am alone.
alone with the lonely moon
and the crowded stars.
the pale moonlight does nothing-
all it does is accentuate the sinister shadows
but it is something
and all that i have
i wait in eager anticipation
for the light i know is coming
the light that brings the promise
because although this night is long,
i know that while
sorrow lasts for the night,
the joy comes in the morning.

Friday, February 6, 2009

One toe at a time

i dip my toes in the water
and remember the last time this happened
last time, i didn't dip my toes in first-
i dived right in
big mistake, i know
the current swept me away
until i was under
and sinking fast
i was pulled down
down until my senses were frozen,
down until i was immobile, with no strength left
yet at that moment,
my toes skimmed the bottom
of the seemingly bottomless pool
and with invisible strength,
i pushed off
the tide had weakened, thinking i was done
well i wasn't
and now i'm here again
here to show that i can do it right-
one toe at a time

If i was Uranium...

okay so we have this assignment coming up in my's called a RAFT. we have to write from the perspective of diamond, gold, or uranium. we're speaking to miners in africa about the effects that WE have on the economy and i have no clue what to write from! it'd be cool to be a diamond...but if i was uranium then i could be dangerous...(strangely appealing)

Friday, January 30, 2009

different sides of the river

i'm right here
you're right there
we can't be together
we can't both be there
we can't meet in the middle
so close, yet so far
we can't be together
that'd be like reaching for a star
we can't be together
don't you get it, can't you see?
we stand on different sides of the river
we're seperated, you and me

Thursday, January 22, 2009

this ain't fun

hey people. i'm here at school after school for our film festival. i don't have anything to do, so...voila. i'm here. i'm thinking about writing a new story here soon...anyone got any good ideas?

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Reclaiming the Kingdom

He looked out the window
and heaved a great sigh
His kingdom was falling, the one below the sky
but no matter His attempts
to bring them all back
they all remained evil, the hearts a cold black
then he sent them a Savior
that would show them the way
and awaken their eyes, to see a new day
but alas, none obeyed
the Savior that came
they all thought him mad; a little bit crazed
but God showed them reason,
God showed them his love
and soon no more evil remained in hearts of some
so these men went out
to shout their great news
Behold, they said, the salvation for all Jews!
he will save your soul,
from the great pit of fire
and lead you to heaven, and not a fate below so dire
but some still didn't believe, and still to this day
they refuse to listen, refuse to obey
But the day will come soon
that the Savior returns
to retrieve those who love him, retrieve those who learned

Monday, January 5, 2009


when the time has come
for you to choose
will your choices reflect God?
or will they reflect you?

when the time had come
to take a step forward,
will it be because of selfishness?
or because you're walking towards the Lord?

When the time has come
to "make-over" your life
will it look more like darkness
or more like the Light?